A Bitter Day

3 years ago today I spent our 5th wedding anniversary in the hospital having my first ectopic pregnancy removed. It had been the first pregnancy so we had been so excited. The entire day was filled with dread and depression and was the starting point for our fertility issues. So I have officially been dealing with fertility issues for 3 years now, I am not going to lie, I am having a hard time focusing on the fact that it should be a positive anniversary (wedding) opposed to a negative one. The fact that it is cycle day 1 makes the situation that much worse.

This is a sucky post but this is what is on my mind today and I needed to get it out there so that I can enjoy my husband and our love for our plans this evening.